What Is Your Choice? Part II

There are 2 choices: give up yourself or the one you love. Friend chose not to give up the one she loves.

Same choice as the 老婆婆 in Accuracy of Death. She believed she always lost the one she loved: her parents, her adopted parents, her fiancé and her husband. Therefore, she left her son and not to acknowledge her grandson. she didn't want the one she loved who got hurt.

“You never known what is LOVE until you LOVE someone more than yourself”.

When you love someone more than yourself, you are willing to give up yourself for him/her.

Accuracy of Death

这部电影由几个小故事组成, 最喜欢最后一个. 老婆婆说: 生命是简单的, 并不特别, 但是很重要. 就像太阳在天上、并不特别, 但是很重要.

棋子

想走出你控制的领域
却走近你安排的战局
我没有坚强的防备
也没有后路可以退
想逃离你布下的陷阱
却陷入了另一个困境
我没有决定输赢的勇气
也没有逃脱的幸运
我像是一颗棋
进退任由你决定
我不是你眼中唯一将领
却是不起眼的小兵
我像是一颗棋子
来去全不由自己
举手无回你从不曾犹豫
我却受控在你手里

黄爱菲

Joked with C, my name Wong, Alfie in Chinese is: 黄爱菲.

Wong = 黄, Al = 爱 and Fie = 菲

Meaning is: I LOVE 王菲.

Can’t say I love her but for sure I like her.

What Is Your Choice?

Can't remember the whole story. Tried my best:

A professor asked a student to list down 30 people’s names that she thought who were important for her. After that, asked her to erase 5 names that least important to her, then erased another 5 and then anther 5 until left 5 names: her husband, 3 children and herself.

This time, the professor asked the student to erase 3 names that who she could give up. She cried and didn’t want to choose. However, the professor insisted. With no choice, she erased her 3 children’s names.

In the end, the professor asked her to erase one name from the list: her husband’s name or her name. This time, she quickly removed one name from the list.

Who do you think she removed? If you are the student, who are you going to give up? The one you love or yourself?

The Charity Show

Singapore Media charity show for China earthquake victims which made my tear flowed for an hour. Since I wasn’t able to stop it, I just let it flowed.

There is nothing special about the show. However, sometime the simple is the better. It touchs most people’s hearts.

Say Good Bye

A familiar control tower? Yes, this is Changi Airport.

Sending a friend away this morning. He is going to chase for a dream for himself and for his family.

Decided to send him is not only because he was leaving this country, the main reason was I understand the loneliness when waiting alone for departure in the airport. Especially he has given up what he had and going to start all over again in a new place. There is lot of unexpected thing he needs to deal with. I do believe, he does feel a bit confuse and not sure whether he did make a right decision. In such case, he does need support sometime. Accompany him in the airport was one of the supports a friend can give.

I might be wrong. However, I just try to do what I think is good for my friend.

Hi bro, all the best and take care there. It is the most beautiful city I have been visited, I am sure you will like it.

P.S. I used to hate this kind of loneliness when I am waiting alone for departure but now I enjoy it.

渭城曲 【王维】. 唐代

渭城朝雨浥轻尘，客舍青青柳色新。
劝君更尽一杯酒，西出阳关无故人。

A Regret

I have a regret which is I can’t stay with my parents and take care of them everyday. They are old and weak now. I do miss them every day and night.

This regret is getting stronger after so many natural disasters in Asia.

No one can guarantees and ensures such disaster is not going to happen to you or me. Do we really need to wait until the unfortunate to bring us apart with those we loved and regret?

Yes, we do.

树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不待
人去了就再也不能回来，你遗憾的不能有一个来世给你补上。只有珍惜现在的机会好好对自己身边的所有亲人，不要到失去的时候再去懊悔。不要让自己空对着这两句话……

大灾难裡的大愛

总爱开玩笑的说，现在的社会人人利益熏心，再也找不到爱心与关怀。爱心一斤都不值五毛钱。但是，看了以下的报道，我为自己的想法感到羞耻。因为我曾经贱踏爱心。

大灾难裡的大愛

一位初三的学生，赤手挖掘瓦砾四小时，把同班同学救出耒了, 而他的双手已经血肉模糊了.

一位求灾的士兵, 跪哭旁人让他再去救一个人,但因发生余震, 废墟第二次坍塌, 而不让他去, "求求你们让我再去救一个！" 所有的人都哭了.

一位老师, 以母鸡护小鸡的姿态, 保护身下的四名学生. 学生活了, 老师牺牲了.

当兵的人被告知父亲被困在倒了的房里, 但他说: "没法子,我要以大局为重！" 他救了无数人的父亲, 但顾不了自己的父亲.

一名医生, "弃" 自己困在废墟的女儿不顾, 先在第一时间救别人的孩子, 等到他转身再呼唤六岁的女儿时, 她己没有了声息. 他忘不了女儿最后的呼救: "爸爸, 我没死！爸爸, 救我！" 但他把生存的机会留给了别人的孩子.

事实上, 四川大地震后, 许多人也像那位军人与医生, 顾不了自己的亲人而先抢救别人, 还有人忘了自己的安危, 他们只有一个信念, 那就是:把命从死神的手中抢回耒！

对我而言, 我从他们的身上, 看见了人类被名利所尘封已久的愛与关怀.

Show Them You Care

Please help the survivors from China earthquake if you can.
http://www.redcross.org.sg/

Random

Can’t remember since when, I get use to read company’s email till pass midnight. Sometime if I can’t sleep, I read and answer email at 4-5am.

Today force myself not to login and read company’s email from home. Reason? Everytime after I read the emails, they are killing most of my brain cells because all are critical problems. It makes me keep thinking the issue and trying to resolve them. End up, I can’t sleep.

Sometime I am wondering whether I am a workaholic. However, I believe I am not because I don’t have big ambition in my career. I just enjoy learning new thing and have new exposure in my work.

Are You HAPPY?

Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.

Gained and Lost

Life is full of unexpected. Sometime when you think you lost something, actually you gained more than what you lost. Sometime when you think you gained something, actually you lost more than what you gained.

Specially for you:
When you gained someone or something, don’t be overjoyed.
When you lost someone or something, don’t be too upset.

The Celebration

Suggested to go to Sentosa, the Bikini & Foam Party @ Café Del Mar. Supposed to “celebrate” what we lost but end up we celebrated what we gained.

Disappointed. Why none of the girls wore bikini in a Bikini Party? The Orange Martini New Facial Masking procedure. Anytime , anywhere

Friends Away

Vietnam: Today got your email. Knew that you already in Ho Chi Minh City. Stay there 2 years with your husband. Going to miss you because no1 at my age dare to call me uncle all the time, except you.

UK: You are a tai tai now and very much enjoy your life there. Like what I said, I envy you and hope to visit you soon.

Australia: You have moved there for more than a year. A lot of things have happened there. We are sorry for some of the things. Nothing much we can do but believe us, we always there and support you.

USA: Surprised to know that you are going there. May be short term or may be long term. Like what I told you yesterday, whatever decision you make, I believe there is a good reason behind. I do support and respect your decision.

KL: You are a good news for me. After left Singapore for few years, you are coming back. Let’s chill out and drink when you are here.

Shredding Away My Past

Today cleaned up my desk. Did shred few thousand sheet of papers which I had kept for 1 year. Time is flying away without my noticed. I already joined this company for 1 year.

Stood there about 30 minutes and shredded the papers. When I was putting the papers into the shredder, had a feeling that I was shredding away my past; my 1 year memory into the machine. This kind of feeling getting stronger and strongest when the number of papers were getting thinner and thinnest. Many things that I have been gone through in the past 1 year have crossed through my mind again. I was a bit hold backed when I put the last sheet of paper into the machine. However, I did put it in and shredded it. Thing must let go, let go.

1 year memory ended up threw into 3 garbage bags. Cleaning auntie did throw away 1 bag.

一個人的旅行

一個人的旅行　一個人的空氣
一個人的旅行　一個人到底
一個人的旅行　一個人徹底

在朋友的 blog 里读到这几句话
觉得好像在说我自己
不知从何开始
我己开始尝试享受一个人的感觉
一个人旅行
一个人拍照
一个人购物
一个人吃饭
一个人喝茶
一个人迷路
一个人找出路
一个人生病
一个人疗伤
一个人跟自己说话
一个人分享自己的喜, 怒, 哀, 乐

Discount, On Sale or Offer?

Met some friends and we had this conversation.

Friend 1: Did you do what you promised; give 3 months try with any1 who comes to you?
Me: Oh gosh, you still remember?
Friend 1: Of course. Then meant you didn’t keep your promise?
Me: Herherherher…(tried to use my trade mark laugh to pass this topic)
Friend 2&3: What is the promise?
Friend 1: After X years he has been alone and he doesn’t give any1 a chance and try.
Friend 2&3: Oh, then you must try.
Friend 1: OK, now give you discount, try 2 months.
Me: Herherherher…( trade mark laugh again. I wondered this kind of thing also can bargain and give discount.)

Party Week

Never been such “busy” like last night. Rushing for gym, dinner and 3 places for drinking and clubbing. Reached home already 3:30am. List down my program plan, I am going to be busy until coming Sunday.

30th April
6:40PM – Collected shopping items at Agnes B
6:55PM - Enjoyed coffee and cheese cake
7:15PM – Met friend and went gym
8:30PM - Dinner
10:00PM – 1st place for wine
11:30PM - 2nd place for Martini
12:30AM - 3rd place for clubbing

1st May
11:00AM – Swimming
1:00PM - KTV
10:00PM – Clubbing

2nd May
Clubbing place 1 – Zouk
Must go because I asked friends to chill out on Friday night.

Clubbing place 2 – St James
My friends' celebration party for promotion. Wish I can go but can’t leave my other friends in Zouk. Headache.

3rd May
Meet friends for swimming
Others activities – to be confirm

4th May
Meet friends in JB for afternoon tea and dinner

From 5th May
Must work extra hard because I really have too many projects to follow up till end of July 2008.