A Day for Myself

Long time I didn’t go to the beach in Sentosa. Did went to beach side restaurant Sakae Sushi ONLY because the sea view but NOT because the food is good. Finally I went to the beach with friends on last Sunday.

Went to KM8 (http://www.km8.com.sg/) in Tanjong Beach. It is fun to go there. Why? Because can play volleyball, drink in the pool, dance on the beach or lay on the beach and do nothing. I drank bit much that night and my freinds kept asking me whethe I was drunk because I was so "high".

After danced and drank on the beach, we had another program – “Let’s Go Party”. It might sound crazy to go clubbing on Monday midnight because I need to work in the morning. However, as long as it is fun, why not? I only stayed till around 3:00am and had to say goodbye to my “party animal’ friends. I must caught up with some sleep before I went to work.

Did enjoy that Sunday from morning till next day morning. It was a day for myself and I did try NOT to think, think and think BUT actually i still think, think, and think. I feel that I am such a big failure.

Sentosa is actually stands for "So Expensive and Nothing TO See Actually".

Got a 1 year pass to Sentosa. So now I can go there anytime after go gym in Vivo City. It is not a bad idea to have a drink on the beach. By the way, I hate the photo which makes me look so dark.
Beach or Bitch Station? My friends and I agreed that it is Bitch station.
Tanjong Beach.
Show Time.Two ladies "playing" fire on the beach.

Today is a Gift

Writen by Eleanor Roosevelt:

Many people will walk in and out of your life,
But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head;
To handle others, use your heart.
Anger is only one letter short of danger.
If someone betrays you once, it is his fault;
If he betrays you twice, it is your fault.
Great minds discuss ideas;
Average minds discuss events;
Small minds discuss people.
He who loses money, loses much;
He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.
Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,
But beautiful old people are works of art.
Learn from the mistakes of others.
You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.
Friends, you and me....
You brought another friend....
And then there were 3....
We started our group....
Our circle of friends....
And like that circle....
There is no beginning or end....
Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift.

Time

Doing a meaningless calculation on a very early Saturday morning. Why meaningless? It is because no one is going to appreciate it.

The calculation is: 272 days X 24 hours = 6528 X 60 minutes = 391680 X 60 seconds = 23500800 seconds. I already insist for what I want for 23500800 seconds and the number of seconds is keep increasing when I am writing.

Time has passed 23500800 seconds but I am still not able to LET GO. If you ask when I am going to stop it, I don’t know. Seriously, I really don’t know. Reason is I do keep trying a million times but also keep failing a millions times every DAY & NIGHT.

Maybe when I insist until the number of seconds become infinity and everything will be gone, included me. By the time, I have not choice and must LET GO.

Melancholy

Don’t know why, like this word so much. Just like it.

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Definition in dictionary: Sadness or depression of the spirits; gloom.

Beautiful Love

Tanya’s Concert
Tanya, she is the only singer I like from Singapore. It is not because she is pretty or can sing well. It is all because the talent and passion she has in music. Attended her concert last Sunday and 1st time listened to she sang “Beautiful Love” in live. I really enjoyed and touched by the song.

Love's beautiful
So beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有

Yes, love is beautiful so beautiful. I lost it before that’s why I treasure it when I have.

http://www.516x.com/music/96125.html

Stranger
Tanya has a song 《陌生人》- “Stranger”. It is about after end of a relationship and two people become stranger. Actually, this kind of situation also happened in between friends as well.

A friend did mention he has an issue with some of his friends. They used to be very close friends but suddenly become there is no common topic between each other. Later when see each other somewhere and become say “hey” friends only. Finally, they become the “stranger”. I saw what was happened that night and I do understand his confusion, frustration and lose.

He said this is an interesting topic to analyze and wanted find out why. I am waiting for the result from his because same thing also happened to me once. I am frustrated and lost too.

再忽然相遇街头 当我们擦身而过　
那短短一秒钟　 都明白　什么都变了
我从你眼中发现
我已是陌生人了　 我已是陌生人了

***A friend told me it is because the passion is gone. Is it?***

http://www.sing8.com/pop/1/36714.htm

Yoga

I attend yoga class because I want to build up my physical and mental strength. Have thought about attend the class for years but I didn’t take an action. Till 3 weeks ago I started to attend the class.

I found that yoga is not as easy as I thought. It even more difficult and needed much more energy than do body combat. Another reason can be I do skip the fundamental class and join Dynamic Yoga which is more advance. Anyway, I enjoy it and hope I am able to carry on with this practice.

Now I do try to do body combat, yoga, gym & swimming every week. It is a very busy daily schedule after work. Just try to occupy all my time. So, I don’t have time to think too much “unnecessary” thing.

For sure I am not able to do it so nicely.
I like combat is because I can kick, jump and scream. A friend told me, when she is not happy, she always jumps and screams which help her feel better. I try and it works sometime. You might try if you want. Swimming, my favour sport because I like “playing” water. A friend always faint when he hears I say playing water but not swimming. A friend gave me a book about meditation. He hopes it can hlep and solve my sleepless problem. We just told about the book once in a casual chat in MSN. Touch and surprise that he remembered it and did find the book for me.

New Role & New Responsibility

Official announced by Asia Pacific IT head, I take over Global Data Warehouse (GDW) - Asia Pacific from Jan 2008. Good news? Maybe but I am not sure.

I am that kind of person have no ambition in my career. For me, career/job is only a tool for me to earn my living. As long as I am able to get my work done without any problem, I am happy. Difference with others, I never thought about I have to claim to the peak of the mountain in my career. Somehow I do believe spend too much time at work is wasting my life. I rather spend time to do sometime I like and I enjoy. What I want is a simple life and be happy.

Last time when I worked in banks, for me, be the leader (project manager) in charge of GDW is a dream I never able to achieve because he/she must be a very smart and experience person. As I knew, a lot of people eyeing this position in the 3 banks that I worked. However, today unexpectedly I am in position. I never tried to get it but I have it now. Therefore, I am not sure whether this is a good news or a bad news for me.

One thing which I am very sure is I don’t like people address me as The Representative of GDW in Asia Pacific. I am kind of hate it.

The NEED of Life

Did share a story about coffee and cup with my colleagues. This story is about we do lose focus on what is the “NEED” and what is the “WANT” in our lives.

I can’t remember the whole story and also made up the last part of the story which highlighted in BLUE.
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A group of people visited their professor after graduated from university. They were success in their professionals. After sat down, they started complaint their lives and works. All of them were not happy and not enjoy what they had because what they wanted was a lot more than what they had.

The professor was sitting there and listening. Later, he made a pot of coffee and served with diffierence kind of cups to the students. Those cups made by difference materials like glass, wood, paper, silver…etc.

His students chose a cup and served themselves for the coffee. After everyone had a cup of coffee on hand, the professor started to talk. “Just now all of you were complaining about your unsatisfied lives because you are not able to get what you expected.

When I asked you to chose a cup for the coffee, you tried to choose a better cup either in value or outlook. No one chose the normal and cheap paper cup. Well, I would like to know, when you want to drink coffee, the NEED for the coffee is important or the NEED for the cup is important?

After the professor asked the question, silent from the students. The professor looked at his students and continued: Life is just like drinking coffee, most of time, we do lose our focus on the coffee and be more concern on the cup. It just like most people don't understand that have high social status and be rich are NOT the NEED of life.

The NEED of life is you are able to do what you want, you are able to enjoy/appreciate what you have and you are able to spend time for yourself and someone you loved. So, don’t you think have a good coffee is more important than have an expensive cup?”

本来无一物，何处惹尘埃

Just received a SMS. Only 4 sentences:

菩提本无树，明镜亦非台。
本来无一物，何处惹尘埃。

对于我,
身在滚滚红尘中,
如何能做到:

本来无一物，
何处惹尘埃?

http://zhidao.baidu.com/question/17785539.html?si=3

A Walk

Last Friday night did go to Singapore River and took a 2 hours walk. Everytime when I am not happy or feel down, I like to go there. After look at the river and the sea, usually I feel better.

As usual, I follow the river side from Raffles Place and walk to Esplanade and MerLion Park.

走着走着, 耳里传来熟悉的歌曲:
并非我不愿意走出迷堆,　
只是这一次,
这次是自己而不是谁.

有时想想,
明知 不可为而为之,
是痴?
是蠢?

唯一可以肯定的是,
这并没有所谓的
对
或
错!

The night view of Singapore River.
Fullerton Hotel looks more beautiful at night.

The biggest durian in the world - Esplanade. The water is so dark. I was standing on the bridge and looking at the water for so long. I tried to look through the water. Wanted to know how deep it is and what is in the water.
MerLion, do you know everytime when I am not happy, I always come here and visit you?
Many years ago when I was in high school, I did a test. A question was if there is a door and it connects to another world. After you open it and go in, you will never came back to your own world. Will you open it? That time, I chose to open the door.

Now, if this tunnel is connected to another world and after go in, I will never able to come back to my own world, will I go in? I am not sure this time. I have nothing except people I love and I care. I am not sure whether I can make up my mind and leave them.

The “W” Questions

The “W” questions from colleagues.
“Why you don’t talk much now? So quiet.”
“Why don't see you laugh now?”
“Why you don’t join people for lunch and just stay in office?”
“Why you always sit on your chair? Don’t see you talk to others now?”
“Who are you? Where is the Alfie I know?”
“What happen? You look bad everyday?”
“Why now you don’t attend the company monthly afternoon tea break?”
“Why didn’t see you for so long? Oh, you just sit on your chair whole day. Don’t walk around and chat with people now ? Why?”
“Why you wear so simple and so blank? Just like an old man.”
“What happen to you? Something must go wrong?”

The “W” questions from Friends.
“Where are you now? Still alive?
“Why didn’t hear from you for so long?
“Called you and left so many messages, why you didn’t answer or reply?”
“Why you don’t want to meet us? Everytime say no time?”
“What happen to you?
“Why no reply? Avoiding me?”

Those are the "W” questions I get from people.

Hi, I am not trying to avoid you or don’t want to reply/answer your call/sms/email or choose to be disappeared or don’t want to talk to you or don’t want to join you for lunch/dinner/movie/drink. It is because sometime I do feel tired to talk or to meet anyone. Yes, sometime I just want to be alone.