Sleepless in Singapore

Have sleeping problem since 2nd quarter of 2007. Almost everyday wake up at middle of night after 2-3 hour sleep. After that, I am not able to fall into sleep any more.

Did take sleeping medicine for few months but it didn’t help at all. Doctor did stop the medication because it isn’t a long term solution for me. Now I am only taking some vitamins. Advices from doctor are trying to be relaxed, don’t over work, and do something I liked which can help to reduce stress. The most important think is don’t think too much and try to let go.

I know my problem is I always think too much, especially in a silent night. At middle of night, my mind because more clear which allows me to think more. The more I am think and the most frustration I am. Think till not able to breath. In this case, I am never able to have a good sleep.

Actually I am a bit scare of the night to come because I don’t know how I am going to get through another sleepless night with full of frustration. I am a bit helpless on that. Standing on the window and looking at the empty night sky are the only things I can do.

I think I might be able to let go and sleep well in another city but for sure is not in Singapore because here has so many things that I am trying very hard to forget. Therefore, the only solution for me is I have to leave this city. I hope it will be soon because I can't take it any more and can't wait any longer. I want to leave this place ASAP.